SIGH...
OK when I said two weeks ago that I was experiencing the calm before the storm, I had no idea that the storm would be a hurricane! Oh my goodness Party Starters is going crazy!! I love it, but it is definitely a challenge, especially with the first week back to school for the kids. I feel like I have apologized to Al so much that the word "Sorry" doesn't have a meaning anymore. I am just struggling with wearing so many hats! I grab stuff at the store, but forget what it was that I actually went for. A bunch of little things that I tell my family that I will do and completely space it. I feel incredibly guilty that my family is what I move aside in order to get other things done. That is where I am struggling most. I have an extremely hard time letting people down, especially the ones I love.
Of course when life is crazy like this I start to question myself, am I taking Party Starters in the right direction? Should I explore another avenue of the party world? I really don't know at this point, I really want to find a balance. Unfortunately the work I do is all labor, so there is no way to short cut it, unless I hire someone to help me, which I have thought about. I know all of these thoughts and feeling are just a result of the hurricane that is running its course and in a week or so I will be fine again. Maybe I just need to relax and ride the wave for a bit, and do a lot of thinking along the way.
Thanks for listening..err..reading. Thought I would share this video as the song seems so fitting right now.
Hugs,
Pam
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I would say 'relax' but I get the feeling it's easier said than done :)
ReplyDeleteI'm at the same place you are. It really takes its toll and makes you question your place and your decisions. I am still struggling with balancing everything out. I completely understand where you come from and maybe this will help. You are doing something you love. It not only gives you a purpose (obviously you have many of those being a wife, mother, etc), but it gives you a little self worth. You are making your name in this world doing something other than laundry and carpools. You are exploring your creative outlet and it will make you a better mommy and wife being able to unleash those gifts and having that outlet. It will get better, probably not until after the holidays, but it will get better.
ReplyDeleteI am also exploring the possibility of hiring someone, but not sure how much I can let go and what I would even pay!? If you figure this out, let me know!